i have an eating disorder...
i have BED (binge eating disorder)
i have struggled with this for years and never admitted it to myself. but now i am.
i hope and pray that the health risks and other complications will be enough reminder for me to be able to get a little better.
i hate that i did this to myself. it'll never go all the way away.
I am going to Iraq. I want to kill people. With my bare hands if possible. I will probably lose my girlfriend while I am over there. It sucks b/c i want to grow old and senile with this woman. The thought of being alone terrifies me.
makes me feel safe. Even though I am fully capable of meeting new people in person(and I have). I always seem to fall in love with people that live over 300 miles away, because even if they cheat or do something wrong- I don't ever have to find out.
you were fat and a really needy girl but i still loved you i wanted you to be the girl of my dreams even tho you werent going anywhere in life i thought you felt the same way but you couldnt even wait 5 months for me to get back from the militay as far as im concerned we are through i cant believe what you have become and every time i see you or hear your voice i feel like throwing up most the time i wish i never met you
He says he really likes me, but I dont feel the same. I think he is a bit too weird and ugly. I am so shallow, and I feel like the worst person in the world.
I love my boyfriend... I think.
I've been with my current boyfriend for almost two years. Whenever I am with him, things are great. This year it's different though. We attend different colleges and as much as I miss him and want to hang out with him, sometimes I get annoyed when he calls me. I just want to focus on school and hanging out with the people around me. It also doesn't help that there's this neighbor of mine, who I will call Alex. I'm attracted to him and even though I know that he would never go for a girl like me, I can't help but hope. Instead of dreaming about my boyfriend, I dream about my Alex. I can't figure out whether or not I'm bored with my boyfriend so I'm looking for some excitement or maybe I just don't love my boyfriend the way I used to. My boyfriend is the sweetest thing in the world though. We treat each other like best friends, and maybe that's the problem. I don't know. All I know is that I'm thinking about Alex
way more than my boyfriend. I hate myself for it sometimes, but I can't help the way I feel and I refuse to stop talking to Alex.
IM ADHD and it had a really bad effect on my family. my mom and i used to be best friend and she gave up job oppertuinitys to stay with the family. we had some really hard times i know ive told them i wish they died and hope they burned in hell. and told them i wished they werent my parents. since then my mom really hasnt been there for me i guess its to be expected its really not the saddest story out there but i guess i really miss when me and my mom had fun and when she loved me. im not even allowed in the house now
a pair of powerful spectacles...
I spent the last 3 years of my life with a girl I love more then anything, I still cant even really look at another gal and its been over 5 months since we split. Unfortunetally I spent the past 3 years of my life at the bottom of a bottle of whiskey by 9 am in the morn everyday. I quit drinking 4 months ago and it was like waking up from one nightmare to find myself in a worse one. I can't remember any of the things I supposedly did, or why she left, but I miss her more than anything and I just want a chance to make it up to her... the man she left wasnt me. It feels like some cruel demon possesed me and ripped away every bit of my life I care about. Now shes with her friends ex and she seems really happy. About 4 months ago, a month after me and her split I met and shortly dated another girl, and I really do love her too, shes a better match for me, and we get along more and have more in common, but I freaked out and
messed everything up because I wasnt (im still not entirely) over my ex, now shes in a relationship that she defines as "retarded", and I miss them both like crazy, the second girl calls on occasion and i call/text her, and we make alot of plans, but she never seems to follow through with any of it... I don't know if shes messing with my head or what man...I don't even know who out of the two of them I even want to be with, I love them both the same way, and nothings working out, so now its just that initial heartbreak x2. I'd never tell anyone about this, im not the kind of guy to talk about my emotions. I really dont know what to do, I want the second girl back more than anything... but I'm scared that ill screw it up again because im not over girl #1 completely....
I just dont know what to do.
if anyones reading this... I could use some advice...
i like the smell of my farts.
it just smells weird but i dont know just courious
I just binged on Poppycock cluster almonds. I hate myself right now.
I'm a Monster
I once ruined over a dozen friendships, just because I could. I don't think anyone realizes just how much I messed with them. I don't think anyone realizes how much I still mess with them. Its a power trip, and I don't feel bad. I keep telling myself that its self defense or they crossed me and deserved it. But that is not true. I think I've done some permanent damage to some people's lives. I guess I'm a monster.
I Can't Feel Anything
If my parents died tomorrow I wouldn't cry. I don't think I'd even care.
I love myself
Myself and only myself, i cant help it. I know its wrong but its true.
When you told me to remember the good times, I told you I'd rather forget them.
I hope to god...
i know that i am in love with you,even though we have never met. I feel it hard in the pit of my stomach.You have helped me so much & finally i am starting to feel complete.You let me depend on you when i keep afloat by myself.Because of you i feel beautiful & i am no longer ashamed of my "kinks".
But i am so afraid i won't be attracted to you & that i'll ruin everything.
Your beautiful,& i hope to god i will be able to see that in person.
Hate Some Family
I hate that my brothers family is so damn phoney! They act like they are God's gift to humanity. I wish they would move back to where they came from!!!
My husband and I have been together for 4 yrs. we even have a little girl! He has to always sit there doing nothing and telling me that I need to do something for him. We ended up starving before he would really look for a job...I work 10 hrs days...go home cook for him and take care of our child....I'm not asking for sympathy but some damn help!
Sometimes I just want him to get up and be a man.
i feel torn!!
i can't breathe. i can't live. like this . my heart aches just living so much sorrow i feel so depressed and i always have to put on a face. I feel like i have to talk to someone but i dont want ppl to judge me and i hate feelings. this is so wronggg. i can't do this. my life is great and so much is going on. i dont wanna take life into my own hands but i'm scared to death. i dont know i just dont. why is it that we feel so lonely God? i need u . so much. i hate this feeeling i would rather die then feel it.