Screwed For Life ...
I have had a ruff childhood and now i am in my teens. I can't seem to ever get more than a couple hours of sleep a night because I wake up from night mare constently of my past.
I think everything i have been through has screwed me for life. I can't keep a relationship and I only trust one person in this world.
Do you know any ways to get HORRIBLE, i mean HORRIBLE memroies out of your head so you can get close enough to give your best friend a hug? I can't even do that... i hate it but i am so scared of getting hurt again ...
I still wonder...
I'm engaged and completely in love with the person I'm going to marry. But a long time ago while I was still in this current relationship, there was another man I was very interested in. And he was definitely interested in me. I was very tempted to cheat, but didn't. I was really thinking about leaving my current fiance for this other man, but didn't. Sometimes I wonder if I should have. They are both really great guys, but I guess I'll always wonder if it could have been better with the other one. I'm getting married soon, so I guess I'll never know.
my wife sucks
I hate my wife
she does not care about me at all
I only stay because of my dogs
From twelve to fifteen
I fell in love for the first time when I was twelve years old. Seems strange, right? I always believed in the philosophy that you can fall in love at any age.
We were in gym together, he was fourteen but in eighth grade. I liked him and he thought I did, but we never talked about it. I am in band, and for the eighth grade graduation we had to play for the graduates. That graduation night, I realized there was someone that I loved more than him, someone that made me feel amazing inside and that I would do anything to be with.
We had fun together that year; we were the 'little brother and sister' of the gym group and talked a lot. I think he even liked me at a point.
For eighth grade I wasn't able to keep in contact with either of them. Freshman year, they were sophomores, I managed to talk to them more, and the younger brother knew that I liked him. We got closer from our talks every day.
Come sophomore year, I decided to get off my lazy butt and ask him how he felt about me. Five minutes before I was going to walk up to him, my friend told me that he asked the year before and that he didn't like me that way.
Of course, I was upset. I had fallen in love with his brother before, but this was a different kind of love. More genuine. I'm currently working on getting over him, but I still find myself craving the exact words he said, what he looked like when he said it, and so much more. It's things like these that make you feel like you're not good enough.
But there was always the possibility that my friend was lying, because a friend of his likes me and he's been trying to set me up with him.
It's really hard on me and I don't like to talk about it.
'You've really improved'.
I was a horrible student in seventh and eighth grade. I got horrible grades and dressed lazily and just didn't care about anything.
Come freshman year of high school, I tried harder, got Bs and one or two Cs. Now I am a sophomore in high school, getting As and Bs.
My parents are telling me how proud they are of my and that I've really improved from my old self.
It hurts to think that maybe they didn't like me two years ago, and every time they told me they loved me they might have been lying.
She would hate me.
For the longest time I've been trying to get my best friend in the world together with somebody that she really likes, and in the amount of time I've been getting to know him, I think I like him more than she does.
does he love me anymore?
Iv been with my bf for nearly a year now, he says he's in love with me and that Im the only girl for him.But hes just so negative, he always makes comments that were not going to be together in the future and makes me feel really bad about myself sometimes. I dont think he finds me attractive anymore either cause of some of the things he says to me. I tottaly in love with him and i think about if I was'nt with him and it breaks my heart. Just dont know wat to do...
Im mixed up
I'm all mixed up inside. I dont know why i have such a problem with this. It's guys. I cant get close to them and i cant keep any of them. Why do i have such a problem opening up to them?
Its been a whole month and I miss him eventhough I dumped him. There were guys before him but I never missed them like this. This one said all the things I NEEDED to hear. I knew I was broken when I walked into this relationship and he said "maybe it takes someone like me to love you". That was the most perfect line anyone ever said to me and because of that damn line, now I'm stuck and just can't seem to move on. It sucks because I need to move on, I cannot let a man disrupt my concentration on the most important thing in my life: My career. I just want all the missing and the pain to stop because I made this choice, I just want the whole emotional whirlwind to just stop!
I had a job interview, and I didn't really give it my best shot. I'm under a lot of pressure right now, or at least I was when I went on that interview, and the pressure made me think that I didn't want the job. But now that I realize I do want the job, I know I sabotaged my chances. It's not that I gave a bad interview, I just know I didn't give a good one, and I could have. My job field is very competative, and this would have been a great opportunity for me. Now that I didn't distinguish myself, I'm upset, but I have no one to talk to about it. No one would really understand. I just got scared and thought it would be better if I didn't get the job. Now I don't know what to think or feel.
Will anyone read this and understand? I can't explain to anyone just what I'm feeling.
I am incredibly unhappy with myself and am in my first year of college. I have always been a little depressed, but my friends here don't know how to watch out for me and I don't know how to tell them. So now I am lonely with no one to help protect me from myself.
I just ate sooooooo much. I was doing really well and i had to muck it up! Is tomorrow a newday?
I can't stand being nice to some people, sometimes I just want to rip into them for something they have done. But I can't...if I ever want to be elected I need to be nice...no matter how horrible the person
I feel in love with my math teacher throughout 7th and 8th grade. He was about 30 years older than me, and married with kids. His daughter was older than I was.
Thinking back on it creeps MYSELF out sometimes. And I would reach the little cards on the "Dirty Little Secret" music video to convince myself that their 'dirty little secrets' were worse than the one I had.
one sided relationship
my sister and I fight all the time. she always talks about how much she loves me and how much she misses me when we are apart for college. but, i love being away from her. all i feel like we do when we're together, is listen to her talk about her problems. problems that are dumb. problems she has had since she was 15. She's 20. i'm just so sick of it. i could never see her again and not feel a void in my life.
I'm pretty sure I have a crush on my best male friend. He JUST broke up with his girlfriend of 3 years and we've been talking alot more lately. I don't want to like him but I think I do.
And he's GORGEOUS. In every sense of the word.
I like him..
I like this guy, a lot... Half of me wants to tell him, and the other half doesn't. I want to tell him so mad so that we could be together, but hes not at all like me, he smokes and does drugs and hangs out with the guys I hate. I don't want to tell him know in case he doesn't feel the same way about me, and rejects me. I've been rejected to many times now, and I know have a fear of rejection. I don't want to be rejected, nobody does. But like I said, I really like him, and I want to tell him but we barely hang out together. He doesn't go to dances, or anything that I go to. I only see him while we are at school. He lives at the other end of town. I don't know what to do. I want to tell him just to get it off my chest, but I don't want to be rejected. If he doesn't like me back, it will change everything. They way we talk, and stuff. I sit right beside him in class, like so close, our shoulders touch (we are 3 people at one table).
Sometimes I think he does like me, with the signs he's giving, but then others I'm not sure..
So I am asking for advice, should I tell him or not?
She broke up with me
She said we weren't clicking
I wasn't that upset in the beginning
There was nothing to click since she never gave me time
I feel like we could have been so much more