Im so scared
Im so scared to love again. Ive been hurt so many times by guys who swear they will never leaev me, but they always do. Guys suck. they always break girls hearts and find another victim girl in like 1 second.
i want to
i want to grow old with my boyfriend, but i dont think we were meant to be together. sometimes i feel like we should just end it now so later on the breakup wont be too messy, but i luv him too much.
i am still
i am still in love with my ex but he is definitely over me...so i don't know what to do.
i can't help
i can't help but like someone i shouldn't....i have a boyfriend, but when the other guy stops paying attention to me, i miss him.
I'm avoiding a
I'm avoiding a friend, making up excuses every time he calls, because I know he wants to be more than just friends, and I don't feel the same way. I feel like I'm being rude, and I hate it when other people are rude to me....I'm such a hypocrit.
I've always hated
I've always hated the mexican gardeners or workers around every suburb, maybe cause of their incessant whistles and stares and cat calls. I always thought they were dirty and disrespectful especially towards girls. And as a result, I'm racist towards Mexicans! I'm so proud of myself (note the sarcasm)!
I've been with
I've been with my bf for so long now. I know i love him a lot but there's this guy that i can't stop thinking about. He seems to be TOO Perfect for me. THe problem is he also has a girlfriend. I have no intention to break his relationship or loose mine. but i just can't stop thinking about him.
i havent worn my retainers in a very very very long time. uh oh, my mom's gonna kill me.
I miss my
I miss my friends alot even though i cant admit it
I don't cheat
I don't cheat on tests not because I think it's unethical or some self-righteous BS reason that I usually tell people, but because i'm scared...scared of the consequences. And I don't care if people cheat off of me and get a better score. I would only care if I got caught letting other people cheat off of me. It's the truth and you know it.
i'm just tired.
i'm just tired. tired of everything. nothing is ever right. and there is no way to fix it.
I cheated on
I cheated on my exam last week and got a score of 102 percent. I used to get great feelings of achievement after cheating on exams, but now I'm starting to feel guilty.
I made up
I made up some lies to impress other people.
i told my
i told my gf that i had stopped liking a girl i used to date, but truth is i cant get over her, and its already been 10 months since me and the other girl broke it off, but i miss her a lot.
i never thought
i never thought i would become a physco girlfriend... always thought that i would be calm and understanding..but i proved myself wrong when i blow up at my boyfriend for things out of his control.. is it love? or is it paranoia?
my parents are
my parents are too demanding and i struggle too much and stress way too much and worry too much.... i am so undecisive and have problems in school
I act as
I act as thought I'm a very social person. I talk alot, I guess I have people skills and I come off as optimistic and carefree. In reality I'm a very cynical, anti-social person who rarely wants to talk to people. My confession is, I hate people.
I'm lying to
I'm lying to the world. I walk around with this disguise i put on my face. The world see's me cheerful, happy, always laughing but inside i'm slowly decaying. My imperfection's are causing my selfesteem to descend. I feel as if i will never understand love or know the true meaning of friendship. I barricade myself away from everyone and anyone. Slowly becoming a hermitt. This wall used as a defense mechanism i have built over the years has grown exponentially. I stand here emotionless due to the many years of putting off every emotion into a storage inside my mind until finally it's exploding. Tear's sees to exist. Love is an illusion to me. While growing up, love was never in my life. Never feeling love from my family nor friends. My father come's across to me as a stranger. Never been the father figure i needed. I hate him for that. Lack of love has affected the way i perceive life. Relationship's never evolve. Im afraid to love.
Afraid to be hurt. Any type of relationship ive been in, end's shortly after it begin's. Never allowing anyone to penetrate the great wall that i've built. Im afraid that wall has grown to such a sized that no one can ever penetrate. So today, i confess.... im depressed....